AFTER:
Sorry about the last shot, the flash apparently didn't go off or the lens farted.
I still have a few pounds to lose but I am refocusing my efforts. I am going to start eating more and work on building lean tissue and strength and just prevent gaining back any fat. My long term goal in to get down to about 200-210 or so and under 20% body fat. I really don't ever want to look “chiseled” or have a six-pack. I just want to have enough lean mass and strength to compliment my diet and lifestyle.
The bad news is that I will eventually need surgery to have the excess skin removed. I am going to try and fill in as much of the loose skin as I physically can with lean mass on my arms and legs but there isn’t a damn thing I can do to fill in my butt and abs. I could have ab muscles the size of softballs and I would still have loose adipose tissue.
It sucks, and it is a hit to my self esteem but I am trying to use it as motivation to build as much lean tissue as possible because the less surgery I need, the less I will have to pay out of my pocket.
This whole lifestyle change has been a journey and I am only over the first hill thus far. There is a shadow of light on the other side of this mountain and I hope that I can stay motivated and disciplined enough to see how bright the light is at the top. Seeing myself shrink and fitting in to smaller and smaller clothes has been a very emotional roller coaster. I cant tell you how many times I just looked in the mirror and cried because of how happy I am with my new self. The highest point was last weekend when I was at Sports Authority. I couldn't find any pants or shorts in a 38” waist so I went to try on the 36”s to see how close I am. Well to my complete surprise I fit in them with no problems, and they fit well. I then tried on a size Lg Adidas wind breaker and it fit too. I came out of the dressing room walked over to my wife and just broke down on her shoulder. I couldn't believe it. All she could do is just hold me and tell me how proud of me she was. It was a huge moment in my life to say the least.
I hope my story will motivate at least one person to make that commitment toward a better and healthier YOU. It isn’t easy, but the reward is a much better way of life. I will never be the person I was before ever again and I can only imagine I have added at least 5 years onto my life. I also know that I have a much lesser chance of ever getting diabetes or any other health related problems due to obesity.
Take care,
Jer.